The birth of my son was one of the most pivotal moments of my life, and not for the obvious reasons. Of course there was the miracle of life and the new parent jitters and the 14 day NICU stay that was like an emotional roller-coaster from hell. But behind the scenes I was (for lack of a better term) spiritually bankrupt.
– Lost in the fear –
You see I had gotten into the whole “Fear Porn” side of the internet, and if you are unfamiliar with this term, basically it’s a tangled web of conspiracy theories, fear and terrifying accounts of how secret elites are going to imprison the world and murder your kids.
It just so happened that around the time my child was born, I had found myself in a particularly dark place, deeply absorbed in the “fear”. My wife being very perceptive decided to have a “Come to Jesus” meeting with me.
– You need to decide what you stand for –
She told me that I needed to find a way out of my funk and to essentially “buck up buttercup, we’re parents now”. I didn’t know what to to do, so I asked the universe for a sign. A sign that I would recognize when I saw it, that would show me that there is MORE to this life than fear, death and taxes. Ok that’s a little grandiose, but basically I asked in my heart for a glimmer of light to help me out of my profound gloom.
– The Cauliflower –
A week or so after this happened, I stumbled across the Romanesco Cauliflower while wasting time surfing the web. As an artist, when I first saw it I was mesmerized. In my minds eye, I pictured one of those impression pin push toys found in novelty stores. But what my heart recognized was the Infinite Universe was pushing through to the physical realm.
– The Path –
Essentially I owe my life’s purpose in starting on the path of SELF KNOWLEDGE to this obscure vegetable. Where it has taken me since then has been nothing short of AMAZING. I live the life of my dreams, because I know how to create them. I understand that thoughts are things, and I experiment on the regular with MANIFESTATION. I know that although the pursuit of happiness may be the goal for some, to me finding my souls PURPOSE, is the true nectar that heals and nourishes the BODY, MIND and SOUL. I understand that being on THE OTHER SIDE OF KNOWING, of who and what I AM leaves NO room for fear.
– Does this resonate? –
You will know by simply reading this if there is more here for you. If you will allow me, I would like to share some of the things I have learned over the the last few years, that can help you come to a better understanding of yourself, who you are and why you are here.
Thanks,
Eric B.
